My New life

So I have basically defined the term turn over a new leaf in the fact i have completely changed since last being on here....... needless to say along my path I have had some weird journeys so far and some where ok some AWSOME some where even lame. I have found that although through life so far I have had struggles in many cases yes they have built me stronger but it took some doing for me to see that bigger picture. You know the one that tells you who you are and what you should do ..... I guess im just the lucky begger who found his path and now knows how to live it.

I have now got a girl who is my equal in every way she is the epitamy of me and she knows it or at least i try to tell her so she knows it. This person is my world and dont get me wrong i have said that in the past but this is different and i know how this sounds like the epic set up for an epic down fall but lets face it. If I do fall me being me im just going to pick myself back up again and well start on a new path because that is what life is about forging it..... forging a new life , a new surrounding, to be one with yourself. I am probably going to regret even posting this on this site but its so if i do fall down i will always look back at this and can say I WAS HAPPY ONCE ......... AND I WILL BE AGAIN.

What the hell did i do

What i would more or less like to know is why the hell am i being beaten up over the internet by a girl who i used to like . All i said was the fact that i wont love her until i help her with her problems , but what did this do it got me into trouble even though i knew the fact that i did still like her a little bit it is just fucking grousome attacks on my behalf and worse of all she didnt even tell me while for all i know her friends could of been laughing at the fact that i didnt know anything was up. OH and did i mention onne of the reasons i broke up with my last gf WAS because I LIKED YOU .


Then a month or so later i hear that she is telling every one that i love her in school so what am i supposed to do be a fool and go along with it when all i wanted to do is have a healthy relationship with the girl . No but of course she didnt want to any more because of the fact she wasnt her self any more , now dont get me wrong but i realy didnt care about that much in fact that is what i was trying to help her with . I tried to help her with her struggles and i get basicly kicked up the ass when all she was doing was complaining on about how i was ruining her life ( WELL IM SORRY HUNNY I WAS TRYING TO FUCKING HELP ).

I am going to end with a poem i made my self titled " WTF "

I help and i help
for you its a pleasure
when all your doing,
is shouting at the messenger

so when i help i do not take it to heart
but instead i will gourge myself on 1 jam tart
1 fatty food
1 apple pie
when i was only tying to help my friend
she blew me ski high


So i say WTF
what did i do wrong
i loved you till ends
i encouraged your song

I read your poems
when you gave me the chance
and then you bitch about me
to your equivelant of lance

So know i know the harshness of truths
if you can find a trust worthy girl
then ( FUCK YOU TOO ).

Thanks for reading ;)